Antisocial Personality Disorder
I wonder if I am often socially withdrawn because of antisocial people gaining more and more power. I guess as of today I am not willing to have any more friends—I have too many as is; I don’t even have enough energy to stay connected to the friends I do have and treasure.
https://www.health.harvard.edu/a_to_z/antisocial-personality-disorder-a-to-z
“By definition, people with antisocial personality disorder don't follow society's norms, are deceitful and intimidating in relationships, and are inconsiderate of the rights of others. People with this type of personality may take part in criminal activity. But if they do, they are not sorry for their hurtful deeds. They can be impulsive, reckless, and sometimes violent. This disorder is far more common and more apparent in men than women.
People with antisocial personality disorder generally do not value "playing by the rules." They do so only if they are threatened with punishment.
This attitude leads to a tendency to exploit others. They take advantage of the fairness or softheartedness of others, and they feel indifferent toward or even contemptuous of their victims.
A person with this disorder has little, if any, ability to be intimate with another person. Any lasting relationships are likely to involve some degree of abuse or neglect.
Yet people with this disorder are sometimes charming and can be good actors who use lies and distortion to keep relationships going. Some with antisocial personality disorder have no goal beyond the pleasure of deceiving or harming others.
People with antisocial personality disorder appear to care for no one but themselves. They may be able to understand the emotions of others, but they don't suffer any shame or guilt about the pain they may be causing. Instead, they use their knowledge of others' weaknesses to gain favors or to manipulate an outcome.
A person with this disorder usually does not take responsibility for any of his or her own suffering. He or she will blame others when things go badly.”